February 12, 2010
We all have sad thoughts and dark secrets and it is very difficult to talk about death and suicide, but we have to talk about it and try to notice how people around us feel and in that way maybe we could prevent them from taking their lives
Yesterday evening I read the tragic news about Alexander McQueen, the famous British fashion designer, committing suicide at the age of 39. Suicides are always horrible especially when young, talented people take their lives. What can happen in a successful person’s life for him not to see any other option than suicide? This topic is a very hard one because the highest suicide rates in the world are found in Eastern Europe – on top of this list is Lithuania. Lithuania of all the countries, my God! One can only ask why: are we born with depression and suicidal genes? Maybe… When I was little I accidentally overheard that my grandfather committed suicide: my mom found him hanging in a birch-tree just outside their little cottage. It must have been such a terrible shock for her… How do you handle such a horrible situation and how do you get rid of the creepy picture in your mind…? She chose to drink, a lot… I don’t really blame her. You should never criticize or blame a person until you walked a mile in that person’s shoes. Later, when I was a teenager my uncle hanged himself and also one friend of mine. So I really have seen suicide deaths and I don’t know why but I always get so angry when people choose to leave this world in such a way. Why? How can someone think that death is better than life and just give up: stop dreaming, stop fighting, stop breathing…
Hugs and kisses & long and happy life to all my readers

Very beautiful picture! And very difficult issue. Why? It’s impossible to explain, you only know why if you’ve been down that road… But honestly, for quite a lont time the biggest why for me was – why people prefere this life than death?..